optimistic,

when everyone says love makes th world go round, not everyone would agree. im here, spending some time to type out what has been trapped inside of me fr quite a long time. love sucks sometimes, maybe to some of us, its gonna end real badly. ive always thought settling down w th one i love would somehow bring peace. they wont understand this feeling cos they aint th one feeling it. first thought, you were an angel. you showered me w so much love & care. you gave me everything i wanted but why did you hurt me this way? this feeling sucks. you may think its just because of a bloody watch, but its not. its about th lies youve been covering just to make me happy. im not now, never will i ever again. a year has past, & i feel like a stupid bitch blinded by you. yeah, im not perfect either - not to you. this love story is going to be have an end soon. you & i have gone through so much through these days, months & years. im sorry to say but i think it was just a waste of our time. you were looking up to someone else each day, not to me, but to someone else. do you know how hurtful this is? this really sucks. you wouldnt understand, you wont. she can give you what i cant, then why should i even stay? theres a million reason to leave, but never will i make a single reason to stay after what youve done to me. its too much. you made me feel so empty. you made me cry, you made me embarrassed by what youve done. too many mistakes, im sick of th word sorry. slowly, il disappear & move on. im not fr you, stop assuming i am. you dont write my story, it has been set way earlier we were all born. i believe one day you'll meet someone else better than me, so do i. we're still not ready. i dont wish to put high hopes on you anymore. let time set us all free from our misery. as fr you dear 'pb'. tell your friend its not my fault. if i knew it from th first day you gave him, i would have given him hell. now, after a year has past, giving him hell wont change a thing. no words could describe how im feeling right now. you would kno maybe. yes, it hurts me same to you. im feeling th pinch too. well, as i said, there isnt any use if i were to yell at him now. il let him do what he wants. my feelings faded. its just not me anymore. th person who used to forgive him & forget whats past. no, i aint that person anymore. sorry to have hurt you but ive really got no intentions to. guys are never created to love only one. youngsters are meant to get hurt when it comes to love because we're too young to understand. if only i could turn back th time, i would have been happier. & if i had one wish, all that i could ask fr is happiness & peace. i wouldnt want to get hurt because im not feeling it slapping me anymore. i feel so numb now :/ i should move on, one day. if only that wouldnt have to a dream.