optimistic,

this post is gonna consist of things i might have mentioned earlier in my previous posts but i wish to tell th world that i no longer can give my Boyf th attention he needs from me. this is because i cant get myself used to being on th phone fr long hours, talking to him on th phone is just not my thang. so i decided to let him off w someone else. i think he agrees w my decision cos he didnt quite answer my question to it instead he changed th topic. im sorry if i cant be th perfect girl fr you. fr 2years, you never once told me you had a problem w me not calling you every night & listening to your problems but why now then you make me realise ive been lacking of something & that is th most important part of our relationship - attention. why now? so girls, if my Boyf likes you or shows sign that he does, please feel free to move on happily w him. i give up, i just cant stop having this feeling that im disappointed. im sad fr what hes done & i simply cant forget about it. i wish i could run away from everything but i know i cant. im living in shame now. will someone come & save me? Alvin, this may be th end of us. i hope you'll find a better person to takecare of you better than i do. thanks. school was okay, had some gossipping session (HAHA). had assembly & then was suppose to go HSA but then Bestf got caught up w something else in school so i went home straight. felt damn tired & i felt th sense of silence in me. journey back home was spent reading my book - Tuesdays with Morrie. reached home, eat, change, homework then sleep. i just woke up not long ago. lazing around now, thinking what else i should blog about. hmm. do you think theres still hope in continuing a relationship that has alot of lies? i feel like stepping down & never want to continue but i know it wouldnt happen but it will when im at legal age. plans to get married, & blahblahblah, may that all be just fake dreams. why spend time w someone whom you thinks is th best but found out hes just another jerk? i know someone else deserves me much better than you. you said my words are harsh & hurtful. theyre just words, what about yours? theyre actions & it happen & has its past written on it. its much painful & hurtful knowing than hearing. you still keep things from me, i know. Alvin, know what? you make my love fr you fade each day. im afraid i wont feel th love anymore sooner or later. so i wish you goodluck finding someone new okay? bye );