optimistic,

today fr sure, had a greattttttttttttttt day in school. halfway after recess, me & friends slept during SS. fcuking boring & my classmate told me she just left th class w/o greeting. me & norys sat beside each other didnt realise that she left. HAHA. both slept like a pig. i mean, th weather was hot & after recess? omg, its damn nice. woke up w cramps here & there. so, yeah. HAHAHA. was happy to be elected as th House captain fr my badge. my last year, like Alvin said, make it a good & memoriable year. achieving that fr him & of cos myself. he & i had th same goal. LOL ! after school, no assembly but had to assemble at th respective venues fr meetings. like any other year, me & usual friends would come up to do th cheer. can you imagine, 4 years in a row? but this year, was kinda different. being seniors of th school felt like th stage was ours to perform. hehe. i was somehow or somewhat been called up to lead. alone? omg, embarrassing but towards th end it was hell fun. everyone listened to me (first time) HAHA ! k, diam. heh. lucky me, my house member from th same badge, Afiq accompanied me through w th cheer. so paisey when i actually confidently cheered wrongly. *shy* hahaha. th sec1s were cute & active. sec3s, i thought they were dying. i felt nothing, like as if they didnt want to participate as a house. thats sad y'know cos next year, it'll be their turn. well, lets see how it goes laah kay? th terrible part was i thought Boyf knew i ended late cos its tuesday. every tuesday i have assembly but he forgotten =.= good that he waited fr me half an hour outside school. weee ~ felt so goooood. hahaha. this is only th first tau, belom agi banyak tau. hehe. *tongues out* th hot weather was unbearable, felt as if i was melting from ice to water -.-' i know, so dramatic. hahaha. got to spend awhile only w Boyf ): he sent me to NUH where i met my family. he got last minute work. oh goood. hahaha. then th bad bad bad part comes. thought being w my family would bring a lil bit of joy uh kann instead it brought hell. damn it, parents were quarrelling about cars on th road? childish man. & papa started cursing & swearing in public. wtf? all th pukimak & buto all come out. woahh, what a nabey. then papa mentioned about getting married again & stuff like that? another nabey. papa drove to woodland & mama went fr this religious treatment. i 'so-called' saw w my own two eyes when someone has a 'ghost' inside th body & all th benda-benda mepek. yeahhh, was seram okay. th thing is, i felt like it was a waste of money paying so much fr a less-than-one-hour treatment? hmm, other people has other point of view. then everything went back per normal. mama felt like she has lost her mind & cant even remember she & papa actually fought just now at Changi =.=" i was still wearing my uniform, sucks. missed 'Just fr Laughs Asia', fcuk. start of tutorial tomorrow - will end at 515pm, damn it. my besty, Jailani. jangan jealous people. especially Boyf, suka nahhhh fikir bukan-bukan. oh oh ! i remembered something. while i was w Boyf, i checked his phone. my heart tore into pieces, do you know that? reading his mother's message makes me wanna give up on him. his mother said something like this; "kenapa tak bilang ma yang bang amek helmert ma tak kasi orang laen pakai helmert ma selain suzie cume suzie jer boleh pakai helmert ma" i felt like im nobody. in my heart i kept asking, "why must it be her, but not me? why suzie? everything pon suzie ! gi patah alek uh ngn suzie !" i wanted to shout everything that was on my mind but nehmind. i felt like i was drowning in th sea. i wanted to cry but i manage to control those sad tears cos i didnt want him to see how much im suffering. it really hurts. i wanna cry myself till i sleep. goodnight ); IT HURTS SO MUCH ! FCUK IT ! k, bye.