optimistic,

im not those minahs yang TERlawa fr you. i know where i stand, thats where i dont belong to you. why? cos youre perfect to me or maybe to other girls. i feel no one loves me anymore. no one appreciates me anymore. no one, is there? i want to be loved, but im too afraid. losing you isnt what i hope fr but its whats gonna happen. trust me it will. you'll soon forget me, & find someone better. selagi tiada kesetiaan, selagi itu takkan ada kepercayaan. i cant make myself convince you how much i love you, why im all over you. i dont want you to read my blog, cos i know it hurts knowing you think i never seem to care. all these screenshots are friends. youre jealous? abeh i? youre too good fr me, but you have yaneey. ive got alvin. will i ever get to love you wholeheartedly? just you & me? you already know my condition. you think you can accept me? you said your harsh words are meaningful to think about, you think so? it hurts, & that makes me think you dont care. do you love me? more than yaneey? i put alvin aside, just to love you. do you have th same feeling? i dont think so. im keeping this cos i dont want people to think im so obsessed & desperate fr someone who doesnt even have feelings fr me. like wtf kann. do you know how afraid am i losing you to other girls? fcuk, youre too goodlooking i suppose. im young, thats what you said. i cant understand your 'mature' thoughts like your other girls can. even i kept thinking. are my imperfections perfect fr someone like you? i know im hurting you, cos i know im not perfect fr you standard. everyone has their own standards right? thinking im not that kind, i think its best i back off. i just wanna say i truly love you. deeeeeeeeeep, maybe fcuking deeeeeeeeeeeep inside me, theres a voice saying i ikhlas menyayangimu. tell me you love me cos im dying to live my lovelife w you ): goodnight my __________.