optimistic,

i never want to feel this way, but everyday i listen to your tagged song. eventhough your imperfections are not acceptable as it seems but i still have this feeling that i love you. i cant lose you neither can i lose Alvin. youre so special to forget, i myself wonder why. i dont have an answer to it. i dont know why im so into you. is it because you & i are meant to love each other? i dont know. im missing you since th day i last met you. we wont know when will we meet again. you think so we'll meet this Monday? im not so sure yet. time are moving fast. ive got to move fast to catch time. i cant make time wait fr me. i need to do something to myself. where should i start? & sometimes your words really hurts me deeeeeeeeep down. do you know that? i dont think you knew or realise, but here im telling you. & i didnt know youre attached? i thot you & her are over. i hate it when i feel jealous fr no fcuking good reason. shitx. i shouldnt, sorry. but th feeling is just there, cant help it. i need time to think through what i should do. fcuk, i hate this feeling so much ): i wanna cry, can i? is there anyone to share his/her shoulder fr me? i really need it, i really do. ohgosh, i havent bath since morning. *scratch head* idk what else i could say. haix ..