optimistic,

nothing can change my love fr Alvin. even how much he has hurt me, i simply couldnt find th answer why i cant let him go. those are some of th pictures, im not th W type. im really close to his family. made an effort to wake up at 615am in th morning? waliao. everyone was sleeping when i left. i reach half an hour early so that his parents wouldnt have to wait fr this always-late-girl. i got to make things right again. he loves me, so does Hariz. i love him, so does i love Hariz. which one? i dont know. il now talk about what is really on my mind. i will blog about what happen just now. theres so much im thinking right now. should i stay or should i leave? i dont know. Hariz, i never want to hurt you. it happens to me all th time. youre not th first person whom have felt this, many others did. i just cant help it, but all this thanks to Alvin. you can see fr yourself. theres a reason behind my closeness between his family & mine. ini baru w his family, not yet mine. you get it anot? i dont wanna hurt you, but it happens in a sudden. i was happy you loved me. i was happy you made me, yours. but i just dont know how to repay you w my love. love doesnt need money nor gifts. i know it only needs patience & care. theres too many 'buts', im afraid you wouldnt understand. il let you choose to stay or leave cos i never want to hurt you if you stay. i wish to be near you, but i think we just stay as friends. i cant make it up to you. im sorry b ):