optimistic,

*ALVIN*
has anyone of you felt so hurt before? i did. i feel like someone is stabbing me from behind. yeah, its you. HAHAHA ! no laah. i just feel that ive got to stay single already or go on w someone else? but why i cant make my own choices sey pa? you make me hate you tau. im vvvvv psst off w Alvin. am i not important to you anymore? are your friends much important to you now? if yes, leave me. say it straight to my parents that you dont love me anymore & disappear from my life uh. youre making my life fcuking difficult tau. i go out w other guys, abeh my status is 'attached'? attached pon macam sial. i thought i could be proud w it, bringing it w me everywhere i go & telling others i am but then you make me feel that being attached to you has no point at all. fcuker right you? what you want from me? to just make you satisfied is it? eh, kau peh bawah gi potong uh sial peh jantan. youve been treating me like SHITX, dont you ever regret if one day you get SHITX back uh eh. maybe much more worst than you did to me. im still waiting fr th day. youre lucky laah yer to have one lil girl who goes around your back gitu laah kann. no freedom laa kann. abeh biler nak baru datang laa kann. k, fine. tak pasal uh boy. lu jaga uh eh. dont have to comfort me w your words uh. tu semua taik uh. bodoh peh matrep.
*WORK*
went out w Eddy just now. we went to Dhoby Ghaut first fr a job interview, then City Hall lastly Bugis. got th job. what job? LJS uh. simple ajer. hehs. will start work maybe on Tuesday. greatt. wont be updating much nor il be online-ing. will be keeping myself busy. cant wait actually cos im so looking forward fr it. people, do come visit me. il be working fr almost everyday laah. fuhh ! confirm penat sia. hmm. oh oh. had a greattttttttttttt time w Eddy today. went Marina Barrage, halfway sampai ramai orang sia so i decided to go Pasir Ris park then mama msg lak. so otw there, i went home lor. hees. bukan naek public transport eh. naek motor laah. hahahaha.
*SOMEONE ELSE'S LOVE FR ME*
you .. when you asked me if we will be together anot, i dont quite have th answer to it. its just silence in my heart. i dont know why but i dont see th bloom if we're in a relationship. you do, but i dont. im just not ready fr someone like you. i cant promise you if we WILL be together. i really cant. but i just want you to move on without me if youve found someone else to live w okay? dont wait fr me cos we might just be friends forever (: i like you fr what you are, but i just cant accept th differences between us. hope you understand yeah. you should know youre th one im talking about eh. hehs.
*EXBOYF*
had enough of me already? good. cos now its th time fr me to take my revenge. kau jaga eh. tak rase takot pe boy? hahahahaha. i hate your perangai uh. now i know you wanna take revenge from me. before we make out pon i know what was your intention. aku jer bodoh nak mampos gi percaye & fall fr everything eventhough i knew it was coming. cibye me too. how gullible can i be huh? hmm. memang uh kau ex aku. aku sayang kau dulu & aku busted kau dulu, but is this what you wanted all this while from me? oh my gosh. what kind of a guy are you uh? your girlfriend pon bodoh. gi bukak suah tudung dier. munafik peh jahanam. kau skola pat masjid pon, kau dosa lebih banyak daripada aku uh pompan. aku tak sembahyang lima waktu macam kau pon, aku tahu dosa tak sampai pakai tudung stakat nak cover up dosa. eee. tak sangka aku baru jumpe real punya minah tudung macam kau eh. hmm. bagos uh untuk ex aku nie. gi mataer ngn pompan minah tudung tu uh. korek dier banyak2. cibye kau. so fcukedup uh ngn lu mamat. takpe. ade lorry ade bus, ade hari elly akan balas ! k, bye.