optimistic,

there was a time we fell in love & everything seems so beautiful between us. one day, something struck us & made us who we are now. we may be drifting apart, still i love you. ive said that fr a billion times BUT WHY CANT YOU SEEM TO STICK TO ME ONLY ! I HATE YOU FR DOING THIS TO ME ! *crying* whatever okay. now, i dont care what people might say about me, what i know im still devoted to one & never will i forget you. i dont make empty promises. your sorrys are just lies. i know, thats why i never want to say sorry to you cos i know i cant make it up to everything you ask me not to do. will i ever stick to one? anyone please answer me. especially God. please let my Boyf realise what hes been doing. i never want to continue like this. i may love someone else now, but my love fr Boyf is muchmuch stronger than anyone else. help me. should i love & move on w someone else or should i just stay here & be hurt all th time? idk. yesterday when i posted something in my blog about Boyf & me, after that i cried. i cried behind` his back while he was lying on th bed facing down. then, he realised something was wrong. so he sit down & i face him. when i was crying, mommy masok lak. knnb betol. uat paisey jer. HAHA. then, he wiped my tears & said hes sorry. & guess what he say? "step tak kesah, tapi i know in your heart you do." fcuker right? yalaa, i may show you i ehsai, but deeeeeeeeeeep down i fcuking care so much. & that cibye peh pompan keep calling. kimak. uat binget jer sak. then i just shutup uh. i cant say much already pe. nak tahu si cibye peh pompan tu siapa? no other than tu puki peh RIZDA uh. never stop disturbing other people's Boyf. whats your problem sia girl? takpe. kau pecah pe, aku pon tak heran. yang aku tahu, duit laki aku perlu masok dalam kocek gua. nothing more. kay pape. leks elly. *breath in & out fast* kimak, betol eh binget sia. tsk. takpelaah. forget it. maybe i shouldnt care & live my lovelife berantakkan instead. maybe this is what he really wants, fine. now, my head is spinning fr no good reason. nabey cibye. takpelaah. im not in th mood anymore. takecare people. leave some comments, il need it. k, diam.