optimistic,

on 101107, we were so happy together. on our way to 2years of our relationship, we're so apart. why? im sorry if ive hurt you w th things you dont like me to do. maybe thats just me or maybe i am too carried away by my friends. overall, i still love you. kenapa you kena cakap i daa tak sayang you agi & ask me to forget you & think that you dont exist anymore? you existed in my life 2years ago, weve spent our lives together like husband & wife. how can i forget those memories weve had after so long? i dont care if i like someone else, still in my heart theres you. no one can replace you though it almost did. i tried my best to hang on to every memories ive got within my heart&soul. im still strong to hold on to it though youve got no time fr me. i know one day you'll meet someone else, & i know Karma will happen again. i dont care about all that anymore. i know you envy your army friends because their gfs call them every night without fail but me? i know im not those perfect lil girls who cares fr their bf 24hours, but in my heart, everything is stated th truth. me & eddy are just friends. dier memang suke i, i memang suke dier. but then, he once asked me. if i ever move on, will i move on w him? i said, maybe or maybe not cos i think our relationship is hard fr me to let go. he cares alot fr me, & he oftens sents me home to make sure im safe. as a friend, nothing wrong about that kann? maybe some people might think th wrong way but i know who im suppose to be devoted w. & its you i chose to be w forever. sometimes, words that comes from th outside people about how bad youve treated me all this while i tend to have that decision to forget you. thinking back, i shouldnt. i shouldnt cos no one can accept this imperfection other than you. no one else can accept th way i like to live my life th way i love it to be other than you. no one. i know, cos when i met eddy, hes way different than you. hes so much different than you still your imperfections are my memories. they kept playing in my mind & everyday it reminds me of th happiest moment we spent together. even th times we played th magnet thing & it got stuck on our hair, biler keluarkan saket gilerr. HAHAHA. one of those memories that makes me laugh at my ownself. hahaha. i miss you, i really do. like i said, i think i got too carried away. & i promise il make time fr you next week when you bookout ok. next week saturday is our 23rd anniversary. we'll go out okay? by next week pon my exams will be over. so can enjoy. okay? sorry if i made you cry & psst off this week. real sorry. goodnight ayang. muah *