optimistic,

aku seorang perempuan yang senang dipengaruhi kata-kata manis seorang lelaki. aku adalah perempuan yang senang memikat hati lelaki tetapi hanya satu yang ku mahu hidop uat selama-lamanya. ada pula orang laen dalam hidupku, haruskah aku percaya selain kekasihku sendiri? aku tidak pasti. aku amat mencintainya dari mula ku kenalnya sampai sekarang. walaupun kisah cinta kita tidak semanis kawan-kawan ku yang lain, tetap di hati ini hanya ada dia. my lovelife is going through so much obstacles now. i realised that ive got so much time outside to be hanging out w my guy-friends, but is it wrong? am i betraying my own Boyf? am i that bad to you? my heart is playing around w my mind. should i love someone else, & leave Alvin fr good? must all this happen just because of his past mistakes? should i stop getting hurt & move on w someone new? i really dont know. to tell you all th truth, i miss Alvin so much. but then, day by day i feel that im going too far apart from your heart. im not th kind of girl that has a shaved eyebrown, big cute eyes, sexy bods, & those kind of pretty clothes to show how pretty i am. im just a simple girl w a stupid simple life. hatiku pula dirampas orang lain, haruskah aku percaya kata-kata jejaka baruku itu? i wish ive got many hearts & could love many people w all th hearts i have. sadly, i dont have neither does anyone in this world. one heart, one soul for only one person. why is it so hard to stick to one person? maybe im just too young? i guess so. memang i nie boleh dipancing ngn duit you, ngn kata-kata manis you, ngn kenangan pahit&manis kita bersama selama - 2tahun nie. tapi, betol ke itu semua cinta ikhlas? i sendiri taktau you. hidup i ditetap oleh makbapak i. memang laa i kena stick w you sampai ke tahap kita kahwin, but is that th best fr us? i pena bilang kan, believe in karma. i do. do you? you should to. cos whatever happens now, i know it'll go th other way round too. i know, & im prepared. im not gonna share what ive been doing fr this week cos i think, my life isnt like what i thought it would be. i dont know what else i can do. im stuck here w an empty mind & lost in words to say to myself ):