optimistic,

i believe im pretty enough without edits. editting is all FAKE. guys just dont see it cos they're blind. HAHA. *siapa makan chilli, dier laa yang terasa pedas* still in th mood to eat. had a lonnnnnnnnng nap just now. baby is sent to Hougang. so sedih, cannot maenmaen sama dier agi till tomorrow only. hehe. as th time goes by very fast, i still have alot to catch up. to find my old friends again, to buy Raya clothes, to prepare fr exams, & prepare fr th worst too. ive realised ive wasted my whole SecThree months on that idiot. how s t u p i d. atlast ive changed my link. how gooooooood. feel much safer to post anything i like now. hmm. i just dont like people feel sympathy fr me. fr what? i dont need all that. i just want people to appreciate me, give support upon moving on. maybe to some of you, its just not right when a couple to be separated after so lonnnnnnng being together (?) i understand & i know. i feel that way to, but i still have to go on laa. i cannot be s t u p i d & follow him wherever he go. i mean, ive got my own life to lead. Hairi has left Singapore yesterday. hes going to Hong Kong. haix. he thought ive forgotten but i didnt. i remembered & how could i forget. yesterday in school, me & my 'ex-lover', Wan, had a harsh quarrel. i felt so down man. felt like an idiot too. still, i never showed all that expression to others around me. since ive changed my link, what ive got to do next is to change my number. thats th MOST important thing i should do next. friends keep asking, you can move on mehh? a question that keeps me thinking all day, all night. ive got this feeling that i could move on, being single or maybe start a new. why should i bother if someone comes up to me & say, "hey, Alvin kena rembat. now in hospital." *an example* i shouldnt care, cos hes got someone else. & please, if theres anything happens to me, please dont tell him or even say his name. its so menyampah. some may ask, how can i love someone who once was my everything & anything? simple, just believe that you hate that someone, & ignore him. keep youself occupied & busy so that you can forget that someone lor. it takes time. avoid day-dreaming, you'll end up crying thinking of th past. trust me. im so good at this. HAHA. *so action* now, i wanna achieve something i always wanted. to own my own small laptop & to make my parents PROUD giler. thats what i want now. nothing else. & another thing, to forget everything & pray hard il be okay without him.