optimistic,

just woke up from a goodnight sleep. just finished eating fr sahur tadi. now having a sore throat. not yet recover from it since yesterday. so as y'all know, i wont be going to school today. ive had my two-day MC (^^,) so th happy + sad uh. cant meet love today, & that sucks big time. tomorrow, saturday, cant meet him. Sunday family day. haix. left a week more then he'll be away. why is everyone ive been missing will surely have an end to it? i miss you, love. sorry if i make you angry. dont bring someone else ok ): *kneel down* haix. what a day man. i think, what im gonna post awhile later is gonna hurt love alot. i hope you'll bear w this post ok? here goes. yesterday night, when i was online fr about 10mins? i nudge Erii, asking him to delete my number in his phone. he then said, he wont. i say, why? he say, there's something i need to tell you. this was th last message when i logout w/o telling him. he said this;
I really miss you & its the same. I can't forget bout you. As you see, I still remember everything that happen between you and me. But I dun want you to break up with ur guy because of me. I've no time for relationship as I am busy with my training and work. fyi, I will be flying off to HongKong next week.

i was lost of words. i just dont know what to say. i feel so, useless. i just dont know why. maybe all those past memories are about to comeback, but there are reasons behind all which makes it difficult to be read once more. it was never easy moving on th last time. ive made it thru without you but w someone else. that someone else has given me everything in life which i needed, none other than Alvin. maybe it was a final decision fr me to stick w Alvin till th rest of my life cos i feel incomplete without him. you stated it yourself you cant have time fr relationship, i know. i understand. still, i miss you like before. everything has changed. you & me, we're in different side of th boat. leaving behind our memories.

im gonna miss my friends in school, my teacher MrLok & love too. im gonna rot at home, oh my gosh. oh yaa, Al-Hafiz owes me 200bux. now dier tros senyap. i wonder how long can he hide from me eh. hmm. nanti dier. he'll be dead. i wanna continue sleeping, goodmorning readers.