optimistic,

hello beautiful people (: i cant blog much cos my laptop is still sick. anyways, today, i hadnt had a chance to step into school. im having sore throat, flu & slight fever (?) yet th stupid doctor only gave me 1day MC? lokek sial. cibye kannina. sot tau. now i have to go school covering myself w a stupid mask. how great laa kann. haix. gonna be so embarrassing. hope il die in th middle of my journey to school man -.-" havent eaten since evening. feel like vomitting. i have to head school tomorrow. haix. what a life. being so sick yet have to go school. haiya. gonna ask fr my necklace back from MR KOH SL (*DM*) you lose it like how you lost Amira's, im so callin my parents down. youre going to hell (: so say goodbye to heaven & prepare for th worst from me :D kay, daa start mepek. guess what, after so many years, lost people like my FIRST ex, i finally got his number man ! ha ha. i told him i am attached. ^.^ sweet kann elly. hahaha. hope hes not jealous laa kann. oh yaa, i felt so damn stupid this afternoon. weather so HOT, i wear my thickess white jacket (?) people think i was out of my mind siak. padahal, i am sick ): i hate being sick. Ayangku, i miss you. poor thing mummy & daddy gado. please dont go home late ok? i know how it feels being at home seeing them quarrel. but atleast you'll know what happen at home. mane tahu anything worst happen, regrets aint th best feeling to be felt in life. we already had our regrets, but i hope it'll never happen again. i love you. mama papa aint home now. they go out to dontknow where. left my siblings & my sister's husband & baby. haix. im feeling so restless right now. super sick, praying hard il not faint in school tomorrow. or else, masuk hospital. *fcuk that i hate that* idk why i have this feeling but i really love my manjaboy alot. he sacrificed alot fr me. yet, he isnt happy cos he always thinks that his family dont treat him fairly like how his mother treat his other siblings. im trying so hard to make him happy. i hope when im still breathing right now, he'll be happy every second of my life. till my last breath, il promise il watch over him from above. love you, Alvin. yes i do.