optimistic,

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as fr today, im having my muay thai classes. going at 6.30pm class this evening. my pit will be confirmed once i look at th place. whether its convinient or not. confirmed, Changi pit (; kay, im wanna blog about someone whom i kno' & spend my budak-budak life w this person. i wont tell you who he is. we've known each other fr almost 4 to 5 years already, & it seems like some things are about to change. we saw each other grew till now. we laugh, yell, shout, slack, eat, swim, everything together. but i cant seem to not kno' why that feeling seems to change fr him towards me. i thought i could keep it a friendship that will last forever. going through thick & thin together. its never gonna be friendship anymore i guess? he said he's been waiting fr me almost a year already. can you believe that? yeah, maybe boy-friends cant last very long to be friends. but, it okay if you have that feelings fr me. i still care fr you alot though now we're far apart from each other. right?

Ive got something to say about myself. i accept it if people call me a dog, seriously. i dont mind it at all. my parents treat me that way, & my life has to be that way. im born in that year too. so? yeah, my friends kept asking me out. but i cant. i always cant. my Alvin has already ran to someone else, cos i havent been giving him much attention now. everyone is asking th same question, "why?" i feel so ashamed to tell everyone my past. they'll say im stupid. i should have listened to them in th first place. i guess, i myself have already realised my mistakes. i should forever forget who i was before, who i was w, & what accept what ive become now. badgirl has gone good. no choice, its always ellyana from th start of birth :(