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Friday
2 more days. very memorable day. but haix. i still dont understand. one in a million, i still have to face this. i want to blog, but i dont kno' what to say. my parents just woke up, psl panas nye pasal laa kann. takLeh tahan, so diorang angon. kay laa. im now on my bed, lazing around. no msg for now. Kak Ju happily sleeping. i now sweating. waliao. the wheather takLeh tahan uh. ade kipas angin pon panas. camne? haix. YATTTTT ! lincaaa laa. favour aku nak tido uh. penat aku nak menghadap laptop nie. daa laa panas, ngn laptop lagi, mampos. boleh hitam macam Din sak. haha. joking je eh. shhh :D i wanna buy shoes. sedeh sey nak keluar pakai slipper. so tak style. so tomorrow go buy shoes for myself.
Wan, its not easy for me to let go of Alvin tao. its not like tissue tao. daa pakai buang, no. im stuck, do you know that? im controlled by him. everything. im not superhuman tao. i cant change this i like sesuka hati. love is always unfair. thats what im feeling right now. very unfair. expecially when family takes over everything. it really sucks like hell. macam P...K, do you kno' that? well, school is my only escape. at home, im dying. really. i have NO life man. you kno' it yourself. to let go of someone ive longed been w is not simple. super hard, especially bile kita daa biase ngn orang tuu. my life sendiri tengah falling apart. i hope you understand. we can still be friends, but not yet the right time to be dating. one day, i promise. but not now. i still need to cover back what has been torn apart. & follow the flow. i need to focus on something which no one will know. its about time i say this, my life is full of sadness & sorrows hidden, covering it all w a fake smile. all this while, im just pretending to be happy but actually im not. yes, i call myself a loner. eventhough i have friends. i just dont wish to burden you & others. cos i dont want people to pity me. thats all. i just want to be normal, can i? i just need you to be there for me every second of my life. thats all.
10:25 PM
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